This is hard for me to admit, a little embarrassing even. I did start to lose faith. I got so consumed with trying to present a perfect image, that I began to lose myself in that image. I stopped trusting the voice that you gave me. I interfered when the Holy Spirit was trying to guide me. I told myself lies, that I was letting go of control, but the truth is I was holding on to it with all of my might. At the end of the day, I crumbled under the weight that I placed on myself. I started to lose faith, not because of anything you did, but because I would not get out of my own way. Forgive me, because I have had a front row seat to your greatness in my life and the life of loved ones, I know better. All the praise to you, for never once making my return back to you feel heavy. You forgive and grant me consistent grace, as you have promised we can look forward to brighter days.