Ego Lifting: The act of lifting heavy weights for the sole purpose of impressing other people in the room.
Over the last 3yrs my own definition of ego Lifting has differed little from the Urban Dictionary's.
Personally, I'd gone so long avoiding lifts that I thought fell into this category that I felt I was humble enough to recognise if I was ever in danger of treading near such stupidly uneven ground.
But alas, like many other things, I was wrong about it.
I realise now that the lie I've been telling myself this entire year was that I was "maintaining my strength" when in actual fact I was just "saving face" whilst wasting time.
I realise I didn't want to drop the weight to work more on my form (when I really should have). I didn't want to feel less than I was. I didn't want others to think that too.
Now, and as a consequence of that realisation, I've dropped my squat and deadlift by 30kg to concentrate more on my form and on the building of some lacking muscles.
So what's this video about then?
The Trap Bar Deadlift you see here today initially fell into the ego lift category for me as I wanted to prove I was capable of more than the 230kg conventional deadlift that I was stuck at. Knowing there was mechanical and physiological advantage to using the Trap Bar that would allow me to keep pulling heavy weight, I put it into my routine once a week to supplement my now lower conventional deadlifts.
I sold it to myself as evidence of the strength I knew I had, but in reality it's just evidence that offsets the low feelings I'm harbouring over reducing my main lifts to work on form.
I'll get over it.
At the gym I was going to increase the deadlift to 240kg so that I could say that I'm now lifting double my bodyweight, but something inside told me I was capable of more.
You tell me, is "knowing" deep down that you're capable and wanting to prove it to yourself to save your sanity "ego lifting." Or is it something else?