F O C U S
Last night I had what felt like the weirdest dream, I don't always remember my dreams but this one stuck because I actually woke up annoyed, you know those dreams that feel so real that you have real emotions when you wake up?!
In the dream I had an interview at 2pm and was about 4 hours early for it, I went with my whole family but was told only one person could stay so my older sister said she would stay with me whilst the rest of my family would be in town and meet us after.
The plan was that I'd use the time to have lunch (obviously food was a feature of my dream) and to study for the interview, I became distracted and was talking to someone, then they wouldn't leave me alone, they were practically harassing me. I spent hours running away (literally) and hiding from them. Once I'd finally lost them (and lost half my interview things in the process), I saw my family walking towards me and I realised it was 5pm, I'd completely missed my interview. I started crying, like real ugly heartfelt angry crying, throwing things around. My family asked what was wrong and I explained that I'd missed my interview, the disappointment that washed over their faces actually felt real.
For some reason it was raining, I stood in the rain, crying, screaming, feeling sad, angry and at a loss.
Then I woke up.
The first thing that came to mind was *FOCUS*. I realised that I'd started the dream with such good intentions, during the process I forgot myself and lost focus where I completely missed the mark. This made me reflect on life generally, I can become easily distracted by menial things and end up wasting valuable time and I guess also missing opportunities because I wasn't focused.
I'm now lying in bed in such a reflective mood, considering what things I become consumed with which distract me from the things I should be focused on. It also comes to mind that God can position us in the right place, right time, with everything we need to equipt us but because of our lack of focus we miss opportunities...